nazmi’s sophisticated and some-whut-blurry mind

Aaaahhh~~ and so the holiday come to an end..been like soooo desperate to go back to utp lately.hoho..wanna know y?well just say tht its not a good holiday this one.come to think of it.. yes, a lot of good things happened during this holiday.. went to the east coast, sleep over at granny’s for 3 weeks in a row (sort of a break from excessive usage of computer) =from sun till wed only=, then there are going outs with a lot of people, there r people going to get married and people got married already (sori pie, forgot ur wedding is on sat..i only realized tht on sun)…hmmmm….there r good things happened during this holiday…

but of cos..all tht things almost dont count when i recieved my result for last sem.. which in my history of living there, as the most stressful sem i ever had. never, may i repeat, never in my whole life there in utp i showed such hardwork and a bit of "bersungguh2" while doing a project..come to think of it..its like sooo stupid to work soo hard on a 2cdt hrs (only) subject and let other subjects down.but part of it, is my fault.i shoulda start it as quick as i could..but, nooo lets make time for some sleep and just let time passes on. well to my teammate, i take this opportunity to appologize to u guys.. i let u guys down.

back to my result, far worse then i ever thought, i got 1.8+ for my gpa last sem. yeah..i dont care if u guys know about this..well, i am not ashamed of it actually.. but a bit frustration can still be felt.. whutdouaspect? working soo hard and yet only got a probation!! well, actually i am not tht frust bcos of tht.. i am frust with myself actually.. i let down the person tht has, always has, high hope for me. if i am studying and taking the final just for myself..then i’d say tht i wont do it..this is just me. if it was for me, i wont even be living till today…well, i just dont love myself tht much.hehe. i mean i never hav love myself before. the reason y i can speak of death as usual as eating rice.

thank god i still hav hopes and loves for others.and for tht special One also.hehe. and the other special one also…i just hope tht i wont b losing anymore of this feeling due to my own sin and doing.

take it from the bright side, this is the first time ever i got a probation. yeahh..hurray for me..i mean, i am the one who wish to try out everything during my study in utp. i just hope tht there wont be any first time of being kick off from u.. huhuuu…. :-<

This entry was posted on Sunday, July 17th, 2005 at 8:56 am and is filed under Uncategorized. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.