aaa~~ the sem had started again…and i had already missed classes (only for the 2nd day)…..so actually it is a big improvement.. 
the sem had started..but not in a well start-up i might say. many things came up into my blurry mind. and this jerebu thingy made it worse. i dont know, but this sem started with me feeling "flying in the wide sky". i dont think tht i am suitable for driving, with my mind not in its place. i just got this bad feeling actually, and i think people around me r also getting sick. not to mention tht i had destroyed my mother’s high hope and expectation. i thought i can get thru tht, but it seems tht i cant. getting under probation status had actually affected my mind and everyday life. i dont know, since tht day i bcame like what i said b4, feel like my mind is flying. i cant really concentrate on anything tht i do. even dota-ing and ro-ing also….i just cant seem to concentrate.Then, this bad feeling started. it started 2,3 days before i went back to shah alam. and at shah alam, i dreamt tht i cant breath (and obviously it happened to my real body too)weird, i never had those kind of dream before and if it (death-threatening kind of dreams) happens, i always wake up….this one, i remained sleep until i can breath again (and it was such a long period)…while i took a walk around shah alam also my heart started to buat hal… maybe watching shah alam being in jerebu made my heart a bit x btol…. and up until now…i just cant seem to concentrate on anything… i felt sorry for those who walked beside me and talked to me…huhuu
hmm… i think i m gonna try the last method. tht one never fails me before..
…..me and my mind………….
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